As soon as I posted my history with IY yesterday, the following ran through my head:
Hey, you forgot about the AYRI; what about India? Surely you can learn Ashtanga yoga from, you know, the SOURCE.
Yes, you can. I forgot about that because I don't think I can go. Sure, it's as easy as find plane, collect money, stay for a month or three or six or more. But I'm applying for jobs to fend off a truly impolite amount of debt. How am I ever going to get the time and life-room to go to India and practice yoga? Yes, all things are possible, they are. The universe is large and spacious. The problem with my going to India is that I don't BELIEVE it's possible for me to put that in my life, at least not until I get this job (knocking on wood) landed.
As a side note, I DO believe I'm going to get my feet in Kapotasana. Belief, for yes or for no, is powerful magic.
That line in the Matrix? "What's he doing?" "He's beginning to believe." You know, that one? That really IS as empowering as it sounds. But if you don't believe, it's as disempowering as it sounds. When I believe I can go to India, I probably will go to India.