Enough, seriously, with the psychosis.
I don't even have anything to say, because due to a muscle/nerve freakout in my right lats and intercostals, I haven't practiced since Wednesday, but nonetheless, ENOUGH of the freaking insanity with this relationship.
SURE, YES, I will need to process here, because writing is valuable to me as a processing tool, and I learned a lot from the very, very long post about history and community and belonging. Nonetheless, SILENCE!!
I think that practicing full 2nd the way I do (with modified Kapo, Dwi Pada and Karanda) is easier than practicing Primary to Kapo and really intensifying the backbends in order to develop them into a full Kapotasana and more limber drops/stands. That is one HELL of a practice. Wednesday I was so sore I couldn't make it up from Kapo, and that's pure soreness and lack of willpower, not lack of ability.
Sunshine is good; I still deny that I'm seasonally affective, but I do love to see those longer days and earlier sunrises. Although winter got better as it proceeded, same way that child at six months is still a baby growing out of hell, but child at ten months is a micro-toddler with all the superpowers that implies.
There's fear, about something. Sure, there's plenty, but I mean actual fear, every day, about something, and I can't see the something. This keeps me from looking forward to my annual May Lion-fest, which I'm not sure will happen. What the hell?
Our city is possessed tonight with Final Four mania, and if the current 46-41 score where the locals lead, ends in victory, there is going to be MADNESS in this place; fortunately downtown is 5 miles from here.
I aim to return to practice on Monday.
I'm doing an "Intro to Ashtanga" workshop next Saturday, and will do all the majors: chants, ujjayi, uddiyana and how you do it, dristi and why it matters, prana and apana, the lotus and the gastric fire and the amrita, forty or so poses, and if we have extra time, I'll probably even introduce viloma (as a modified and easy version of active retentions).
Kino in May 2011 (check ashtanga.com, it's there). I feel like it's my job to get my gang ready for that.